a crush?

so... wats the difference b/t..

-thinking someone is cute.
-having a crush on someone.
-'liking' someone.



cuz i find it hard to explain wat im feeling.
cuz like.. yea, i know theres still.. kira,
[but im trying my hardest ... to NOT. -.-
but yea...]

so i guess im trying to get over him by...
other ways.
and i feel like i do this alot anyways.
i think guys are cute every now and then.
but idk...

well i dont even really know him,
and THERE. i blow it up as if im crazy about him.
but really i have no idea if i really am or not.
because i dont know him.
i just see him every now and then
and there are small conversations,
but alota staring and eye catching.
which confuses me.. because usually wen that happens theres like some kind of connection.

but yea,
i dunno.
but i want to know.

but i dun wanna seem.. 'easy'?
but i dun want this moment to pass.
gah,
no idea how to handle this.
like i dont wanna mess up and embarrass myself.
cuz i wouldnt mind just being friends w. him if it doesnt 'work out' but still its like ... i wanna try it,
o.o


maybe talking to him more would do,
but being both seniors isnt really ...hmmm,
'helping' the situation.

but then again,
usually wen i 'go for' someone,
there are somewat feelings back.
so... i could try,
but there is something i might lose,
should i take that chance?
go for it?


no idea,


this is my convo in my head sorta censored. lol
random,
but...trying to get to an answer i guess



hm,
we'll see w.i the next few weeks/months.
=/

i wanna start talking to him.
but i dont wanna seem weird.