i cant believe it....

jeffrey died.

our pet fish died...

we've only had it since the sunday of the MHT fair.
it was rly supposed to be for my cousin, i think,
for his birthday,

but wen i got back frm the fair..
they came home and said they jus came back frm the party.


so, we kept it.
it was $1.00 and ashley[ramos] won it [=
her and stacey named it jeffrey.
we found out it was a boy.


jeffrey became rons ...child

he loved jeffrey.

he fed it and took care of it,
changed its water.



and then, we went to petsmart;
to get it a tank w/ all the other fun stuff- gravel, plants, toy, fishfood.
and we were even planning to get a bigger tank and have friends and all that ....=/

and we found out jeffrey can JERK ! =P
it kinda swims backwards but doesnt-ish
lol,


we were doing pretty well,
and the tank looked rly good.

ron took rly good care of jeffrey,
he got a thermometer to check if the water was fine for him.


today,
he even cleaned the tank, BY HAND.

he totally, rinsed the gravel [handful by handful]
cleaned the tank and
fixed up the tank again

but he left him in the cup
[he leaves jeffrey in the cup whenever he cleans the tank]


wen we got back frm watever we were doing,
we went into the piano room-
so that we can put it into the tank again,

he does it,
cuz he always does.

so he took the spoon thingy,[ pretty big spoon ]
and the cup
to the sink..


and apparently he didnt clog up the sink,
before trying to tranfer..


and jeffrey died, or 'departed'
apprx. 15 min ago.


i didnt know it happened i was watching its tank...

until i heard ron and mom

arguing,
then i heard,
'i didnt know...' frm mom
and then ron screaming something back that made me immediately think of jeffrey...


he went to his room and slammed the door shut,
and 'locked' it.


i knew,



i went and pushed the door open enough to 'unlock' it.
and he was sitting behind the door... in the corner.


crying,




i havent seen my little brother cry,
for the longest time....


and,
it made my heart hurt.

i cant stand to see him cry.



then my mom came in and,
talk/scream-ish thing,
b/t us 3.
maybe i did something wrong..?


and then,
ron was all 'get out! im never going to talk to you..' [somethinglikethat]



so i went outside and kept telling my mom to leave him alone.
because


its like,

having your child die.
after uve done EVERYTHING for it.
nurture it,
feed it,
clean its place up,
buy hella sht for it,
love it...


and then watch it..

go all down the drain.



i feel so bad.
i have no idea wat to do.
or how to deal w/ this.




its the 2nd time ive seen my lil bro like this,
[besides 'X' reason...]



and its killing me,




i went to my room
and started crying,


thinking to myself;


jeffrey's dead....

5 min. of bawling...

and i hear my mom bothering ron about buying another fish.

YEA RIGHT!
that may help,
but wtf....
we were gonna buy fish so that jeffrey can have friends,
jus leave him alone.

poor ron,
i have props for him,

omggg,
idk wat to do.


he hates me now,

and my mom too i guess,

i wish we can rewind,
so that jeffrey can still be alive.

i love jeffrey too ron,
i hope u know that.

='/

my heart hurts.

i think...

this summers gonna suck.

cuz u cant beat last summer.

and im not really looking forward to senior yr.

itll be alot of... classwork, piano practices [ for college auditions ], jobwork, kasama-ing ><, AP >< =O,, maybe retake SAT.....other stuff,

but im looking forward to it too....

cuz itll be alot of.... senior status stuff ;], 'lasts', prom o.o, random stuff, lol- kasama-ing, getting accepted [=, *cough- winning battle, and hella other fun things =P


...yesterday, i fell asleep at 6,
cuz i had nothing to do...

and i told my brother ...
if summer was gonna be like that,
><
then id rather start senior yr.


so [=
lets go out?
transformers2 !
cant wait !

i wanna watch the taking of pelham123
><

hmmm,
relive summer moments last yr.
in a different sense.

:D
'our group' again,
dowtown everyweek. lol
dennis, andrew, vlad, ron. [rosa]
wow.
thatd be fun.

maybe i should plan it out,

but then again,
itd be fun to be spontaneous.
:D


summer;

its here.

im glad its over, but honestly....

im gonna miss it.

this yr went by WAY too fast.
and.
><

im HELLA gonna miss it.

ima miss waking up in the morning and being late to K's like almost everyday ><
gahhh.
ima miss talking to sean [precal buddy] and listening to luciano talk to daniel about hella random az sht.
ima miss jessica chau sitting in front of me =P
ima miss hearing mr k say 'all good things must come to end' wen class is over. [altho ima hear it next yr]
ima miss those 2nd period inside jokes.
--
ima miss seeing cesar at his locker and us fighting over the space near it [locker neighbors x.x]
haha. and ima miss beating him there and calling him a stalker.
--
ima miss jensons class and how me, liana and clarice would jus sit for like...the whole first half of the period.
or jus talk and eat.
ima miss listening to this advanced choir.
and ima miss how liana always got annoyed by 'their' laughing. XD
--
ima miss the brunch where id go to our mini quad in the soph quad [cuz now we got the tables !]
ima miss that cuz other ppl are probly gonna get that spot next yr.
--
ima miss walking random garsh4th period ppl to class.
ima miss randomly hugging jovey before 4th.
ima miss jus walking into garsh's class.
ima miss ericssons class [ >< easy classsss. ]
ima miss sitting next to patsy and asha and camille and lol oliver and ryan and ashley cunha.
and yea,
ima miss randomly talking about stuff. >< and kinda getting in trouble
ima miss listening to ashas arguments w/ jose or javier. or others.
ima miss having the bell ring and getting to rochelle to get ready for physics
--
ima miss beating rochelle to wous class even tho i went to the locker to get stuff and she dint. [lol]
ima miss that and random bumping in to ppl.?
ima miss wous class !
ima miss learning physics and dying ><
and ima miss those projects w/ team LARA. and andys pepe talks [lol]
and ima miss mr wous stories and jokes
ima miss armily.<3
ima miss jo!
ima miss alota seniors.
ima miss giggling w/ rochelle about how hungry we are during 5th period. =P
ima miss ateh<3
ima miss ateh waiting for me outside of wous class.
--
ima miss going to the locker.
ima miss seeing ppl at our 'spot' lol
ima miss not seeing anyone there and knowing theres like... a CVC meeting or something lol.
ima miss selling sht to ppl.
ima miss boring lunch's [NOT]
ima miss running around during lunch
ima miss talks w/ ateh.
ima miss walking w/ ateh to 6th =P
ima miss walking to currans.
--
ima miss curran ><
ima miss the nickname 'princess leah' ahaha.
ima miss hanging out outside of burts/currans
ima miss hearing curran say something about the dark
ima miss making fun of adan. lol
ima miss our 'square' -me, eric, adrian, chris-
ima miss juana.
XD and ima miss curran making fun of the cheerleaders.
ima miss benny. [competitor]
ima miss curran saying... 'iufbvosihbovsd MINUS....234850289347' lol
ima miss sitting around in currans class doing nothing 50% of the time.
ima miss really learning in currans class. >< cuz its easy to learn from curran and fun =P its easy to remember.
ima miss learning history from him- he made me like it kinda.
ima miss poking eric if he 'sleeps'
ima miss the way we can hear ms burt wen its quiet. lol
ima miss laughing wen we hear her.
ima miss those days where we jus chill
ima miss those food festival days, where everyone gets...food. o.O
ima miss having kasama meetings in currans class.
--
ima miss passing period to 7th
ima miss walking there w/ marvin and him telling me wat the hell we're doing in that class.
ima miss walking in late alot and not being marked tardy
ima miss sitting next to amy<3
ima miss talking to farah about physics. ><
IMA MISS PLAYING CARDS WITH NATE, JEFF AND CHRISTIANDY. DDDDDD=
ima miss jeffs card towers.
ima miss ms garsh.
ima miss that one sub we had ;] nate's g/f. lol
ima miss spanish.
ima miss 7th period.
--
ima miss walking out of the last class
ima miss going to my locker last in the day
ima miss meeting rochelle there :D
ima miss going to dangs after school
ima miss badminton
ima miss kasama practices [not] jk! <333kasama
ima miss leaving early.
ima miss staying late
--
ima miss everyone.
ima miss kasama.
ima miss school.



but its ok. [=
ill get over it =P
i have next yr.
[well, half of those things next yr]

lol.




SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!
here i come.


i cant wait =P


CONGRATS CLASS OF 09!
ur free!!!!!!.