i didnt sleep at all...

and i cant put my finger on why exactly i couldnt fall asleep.

well its probably because i ate chilis and was full afterwards and hyper. [especially after dessert]
or because i felt as if we 'stole' chips... even tho it was 'bottomless' and it shouldve been ours anyway.

or..
its probably because wen i got home i was tired,
and i tried on all the clothes i bought today [again]
and showed them off to my mom... x.x
cuz im excited after i buy clothes... or go shopping..

or its probably because after that. i decided wat i was going to wear for the week...
and now im looking forward to this week

or its probably because after i got bored picking clothes
and playing collapse on the computer
and looking at my facebook/myspace
..i decided to fix up my 2nd myspace
that has my about me on it
and i was all into it..

or it might be because in the middle of my editing,
ERIC called me.
maybe its cuz i havent talked to him since....
wednesday at adrians birthday ..thing
and i was excited to talk to him again and catch up and wanted to know wats going on in his life and how his weekend was and wat i missed b/t the time we last talked and now, and wat'll happen later and... other random switch stories that we do.. and randomly talk about on the phone [which lasted 2 hours...]
..
o.o maybe its because im kinda used to falling asleep with him on the other side of the phone,
maybe thats y i couldnt sleep because... he wasnt.. cuz i guess since he wasnt home.. and he was watching TV.. and blah.
cuz im used hearing silence/him from the other side of the phone... and it makes me happy. and sleep...


or maybe its because after i couldnt fall asleep i decided to pick up my laptop and finish editing my other myspace,
and told myself that id fix it up more later

or probably because
i spent a good hour or so uploading pictures to an album i will later edit...
its called 'abriefsummaryofmylifebetween11.9.07-11.25.09]
its pretty amazing actually.
i will later put captions on every single one.
and ... ull know part of me.
...of course its work in progress, cuz..
im not done yet.


or maybe i cant sleep because the music im listening to makes me think alot..

or maybe i just excited to see dennis later today.
because... its sunday,
its the only reason i like sunday now...
because i get to be with him...
even if it means i hafta work,
at least its with him....


or maybe because im still looking at the pictures and the memories
and im thinking.

or maybe its because this crystal geyser water is drugged or something o.o
i took 2 sips earlier.. like maybe around 3 or 4 and i was pretty awake...


this is a weird all nighter.


maybe i couldnt sleep because all ive done was think and use my emotions
and thinking ...is blah ..
and my emotions.... are blah.




its weird tho..
uknow, after going around great mall for maybe 6-7 hours... then ending up at eastridge for a little bit then...chilis.
u wouldve thot id be exhausted... and dead tired.

but here i am...
awake.
writing a blog about being awake...
and confused...
and..

not tired.
nor sleepy.

..
i
am
so
weird.....