its kinda sad,

its kinda sad knowing that i tried killing myself once,
its kinda sad how it obviously didnt work..


its kinda sad how when i yell,
my parents yell back telling me to stop yelling.

its kinda sad how they cant even understand me
because of their broken english and
'pruits' and weird ass pronunciations.

its kinda sad how most filipinos dont know where they came from
and its kinda sad how they wear those shirts but dont know wtf it means,
if you dont know what it means, dont wear it.
dumbass,

its kinda sad how ppl are alienated in a school full of people.
its supposed to be a safe place.
not a place for cliques and shit.

its kinda sad how discrimination is still happening.
even at schools.


its kinda sad how people can be so closed minded that they cant even get their shit straight.
its kinda sad how people cant seem to understand one another
because they are so closed minded.
and they fight,
and it may or may not lead to death,
..
but all they had to do was take a minute to understand.



its kinda sad how kids these days drink
or smoke

they have a whole life ahead of them.

its kinda sad how they know they have lives ahead of them yet they still do it anyway,
they're just too blinded to see it more clearly.

see,
its kinda sad how people say their blind when they're not when they can see just fine or they want glasses just for the hell of it
when there are people who need them. or who really CANT see..
its kinda sad when the people who want to be
make fun of those who cant help it.
because
its kinda sad how it was part of their lives without choice.

its kinda sad how i need to memorize my songs because i dont like using my bifocal lenses on the piano in choir class because people might make fun of me.

its kinda sad how ppl used to make fun of me.


its still sad how im afraid people might make fun of me




its kinda sad how im not heard unless i yell
and its still kinda sad how even if i do yell, they dont really hear me.
it jus gets
quiet.


its kinda sad how i like it wen it seems like people are listening even if their not because
i dont really get that alot.

its kinda sad how i always want to be heard.
its kinda sad how family wont even listen to me.
its kinda sad how some friends dont even really care,
yet
its kinda sad how when somethings wrong people care, but wen i just wanna say something they dont.
maybe thats y i make big deals of things,
or get frustrated or mad or angry or sad easily,
i need attention..

its kinda sad how i still dont get much attention.



its kinda sad how people think that smart quiet one.
wen i can be loud and stupid too.
not that i want to be known as stupid,
i just dont ONLY wanna be seen as smart... or quiet.




its kinda sad how people make fun of other people w/o realizing it.
w/o both sides realizing it....
but a 3rd party sees it.





its kinda sad how wenever LOVE appears in my mind or i hear it or see it...
i think of one person

its kinda sad how wenever LOVE appears i dont think of God or the Bible or family...
i think of him...

its kinda sad how wenever LOVE happens to cross my mind,
he crosses it at the same exact time
causing a collision of feelings and emotions both happy and sad.

its sad.


well, its kinda sad watching me try to get over him countless times,
yet fail...every single time.

its kinda sad watching myself fail because ive fallen back in love with him.

its kinda sad how im afraid of having someone else to hold and be happy with because i wouldnt wanna hurt them if i fall back in love with him.

[[ its kinda sad how i like him, ive liked him and im too afraid to do anything about it.. because i dont want to hurt him..
but its kinda sad how i talk to him almost every night anyway ...
its kinda sad how im not even sure he realizes i like him, altho to me its pretty obvious. eh, maybe not to him.
its kinda sad how wen im on the phone with him, there are long silences and then i realize that its the type of love SHIHAN talks about,
teenagers really DO talk on the phone for hours not saying SHIT.
its kinda sad how.. i could love him.
its kinda sad how sometimes i think maybe i should give up...
but its kinda sad how im so attached.

its kinda sad how i think of him alot, even tho i think of HIM too...

its kinda sad how maybe... im falling for someone again,

its kinda sad how im afraid..]]



its kinda sad how i cant seem to let go, even tho all this time ive been trying to

its kinda sad how it always seems to head back in his direction.
because hes always there,
because he comes back to me..

its kinda sad how im sad about being in love with him.
nowadays.

its kinda sad how im sad about being in love.
i mean, isnt love supposed to be happy.
especially relationship wise...
its it supposed to be the one thing a teenager really wants?
besides money.... and success?
i mean,
EVERYBODY wants to find someone to love.
and hold
and cherish.
.. to love

its kinda sad how everytime i see him,
i love him

and everytime hes gone,
im depressed about being so obsessed with him.


its kinda sad how im obsessed.

you see,
i try to oppress my obsession by having a talk session almost every night
with a potential.... *cough
since freshman yr.
but.. i cant seem to do anything because of my obsession.

its kinda sad how there could be someone else.

but its kinda sad how it could be too late...


its kinda sad how he knew... and he 'couldnt' because he knew HE was always there....

its kinda sad how i like him...
but i love HIM.

its kinda sad that maybe im taking this the wrong way.
maybe i can love HIM like... a brother [ew] or something like that.
and start liking him more.....
but ... hmmm,

its kinda sad how i cant let go.
u know,
of my first love ..

man i just want to shove him out of my head.
but he just keeps holding my hand.
and kissing me


its kinda sad how i wait.
wait for him
wait for me
wait for ...

rides home
around 6pm after daylight savings
u know
when its all dark and cold and shit.


its kinda sad how when my mom says 10 min she really means 30..
or if she says 30 min she really means an hour.

its kinda sad how she works too much for her own good.

its kinda sad how im doing the same.

its kinda sad how i dont want to be like my mom because i want a family that is based on family..
not income.

its kinda sad how dad doesnt really help much.

and its kinda sad how he forgets.
how he forgets my birthday
my brothers birthday
my moms birthday,

i remember a couple yrs ago it was their 25th yr wedding anniversary.
mom was so excited.
...

but he didnt do SHIT.
he forgot.
she cried
hard that night.

.. its kinda sad watching your mom cry

its kinda sad knowing it was your dads fault.

its kinda sad hearing them fight and not know wat to do besides IMing or txting ur lil bro and asking if hes ok...
its kinda sad how wed hide in his room until they stop, then go outside and watch TV so they wont start again

its kinda sad how mom wont get a divorce.




its kinda sad how divorce is taking over the world.


its kinda sad how ppl dont think they're able to help the world out.
even tho every little thing counts.

its kinda sad how ppl are starving to death every day
but i still see ppl throw food away...
take wat you can eat.
..no more.



its kinda sad how no can mean yes to some people you know,
i know you heard it before,
'yes means yes and no means yes'
wtf,
NO, means no.

if you dont know that,
i dont even know what to say to you...

its kinda sad how people dont know how to speak up
or speak for themselves.

its kinda sad how i used to be one of those people.

its kinda sad seeing those people struggle.

its kinda sad how i dont do much about it,
i try tho.


its kinda sad how ..
people cheat,

gf/bf.. tests.. games...

in the end ur just cheating urself.

its kinda sad cheating on a gf/bf.. and then asking for forgivness and the same love...
wtf man.
it was ur choice,
u did it,
and u need to learn ur lesson,bye.

its kinda sad how they dont understand wat bye means.

its kinda sad how wen u cheat on quizzes and shit its ok because u know all the right answers n u pass

but its kinda sad how wen u take the test u have nothing to cheat with so you fail
and u wonder y u failed or got a bad grade.


its kinda sad how u win the game, but u cheated.
u didnt really win the game
ur the biggest loser alive.

its still kinda sad how people cant speak up


its kinda sad how ppl probly wont read this
so i choose to say it out loud.
to this crowd.

cuz you see,
i want people to hear it
all of it.


because its better than watching a movie,
you get more morals than your mom can handle.

its kinda sad how half ya'll missed it.

heres what i dont want you to miss,..

dont worry,
just be happy.