o.o

i will and i am.
i got thru today,
i can get thru tmrw.

i cant get thru any day.
everyday, ill try.

its tough wen i see you,
and tougher wen i think of you.

but im doing it,

ill fulfill your last request,
but itll take a while.
a long while.
true.




but it leads me to another thought,
of how..
i wont be able to move on.
i can... 'move on'..
but not.. MOVE ON.
if that makes sense,

because ive tied love to your name.
the word.
the meaning.
the feeling.
to you.

so...
im afraid to find someone else,
because its gonna feel like
im just using the to get over you.
or something like that.
uknow?


i dont wanna hurt someone,
ive done it before,
u know..
with kevin.
because i went back to you.
during.
*sigh,




so,
im losing it.
o.o
slowly.

luckily,
slowly.




lol,
im looking tho,
its jus hard to find someone.

and no,
im not forgiving him
to me..
as i see it.
hes another reminder to me of you.
so ill need to let go of him for a while too.
..


to clear my mind.
ill spend time with the girls,
i miss them.

ive been spending most of my days with you guys.
and neglecting them.

so,
here i am SRLdays<3
i miss you.



gah,
i havent seen sheryl in forever.



and guess wat?
i want you to know that im putting together something for you.
youll see, eventually.

and ull know wen it comes.

takecare ok?



...
:)