GG

my birthday was a turnaround.
kinda

'yesterday' came back.
and now we're "cool" again i guess.
he apologized, he told me almost everything
and now its "normal"

but its not.
..
he kissed me.
i still felt.. love.
wen i was trying to let go.


how am i supposed to get over u ..
if u kiss me,





was it because it was my birthday?
im confused.



agh, i was trying so hard.
and now im back to square one,
or two or something,




because i care for you so much x.x
and u kissed me.



i usually dont kiss and tell- especially all those other times,
but like...
wat the eff man,




=[

im so confused.
because,
i was trying to not.. like
FALL for anyone,
kinda.


i wanted to be... 'single'
and not have anyone in particular in my mind,
kinda,


or.. have someone else
but i dont want that someone else to be like.. rebound.

and now its just awkward.



wat am i supposed to do now?
keep on kissing back?
or..
tell u to leave me alone? NO.
i dont wanna you to leave me anymore,

but i dont wanna get into a relationship.,
but thats a lie...
i miss you,

but its different,
i cant be with you at school.

UGH!!!! its gah,



we'll see how this plays out...i guess,

a couple more months to go... before O.O =[ u leave,