multicultural is coming up..

so WAT THE FCK is everyones problem.


i hold practices so that YOU guys can look good.
so that this club can perform and spread its filipino culture to the 'community'
so that we wont SUCK next week.

its NEXT WEEK. dammit.!
i dont know if you guys can grasp that idea.
but.. thats.. uhmm.. 7 days?

today was THE ABSOLUTE WORST DAY [besides after practice :D - but thats a different blog]
barely anyone showed up.
i look highly to those who did
and to those who told me they couldnt show up FOR A LEGIT REASON.

but everyone else...
really?
im there for you guys.
if you dont want to do multi.
shure.
ill just take kasama out of it and we'll be finished.
i wouldnt have to waste my time waiting for ppl to show up to practice.
and i wouldnt have to waste my own personal money for the needs of the club.


but i cant do that.
you know why?
because i LOVE this club.
i LOVE my culture.
and..
even tho i spend my afternoons listening to that dam song everyday.
even if it might get a little annoying.
im OK with it.

because thats how much i LOVE kasama

but it BREAKS MY HEART.
knowing that you sign up to do it or you say youd do it.
and you..... act like you dont give a SHIT about it
you act like... oh... its just kasama... im gonna go out with my friends....and have fun elsewhere.
because kasama really doesnt mean anything to you.
kasama means just about half of my life. as of right now.


THANKS.
thanks for making me feel like an idiot.
wasting my days on the blacktop waiting.
thanks for killing my dream of having a successful mutli.


all odds were agaisnt me this year.
-some of my officers didnt take this seriously.
i had meetings and ...
gah, i dont even want to talk about them.
i act like its fine.
its NOT.
ur an officer.
i chose you because i thot youd be responsible enough to get the job done..
only like.. 2 or 3 of you really help much. [i thank you]
-multi was moved up ONE WHOLE MONTH.
thats 4 weeks. subracted to our practice.
thats why we're practicing so much. ok?
4 weeks is ALOT of time.
and yet again, i repeat.
we have ONE week left.
-ME.
im stressed out like crazy.
i have family problems falling everywhere
at every turn
my COLLEGE auditions are ALL in feb.
except one in march.
but COME ON. the timing in my life is horrible.
last saturday i just took two of the most important auditions in my life
because those two decide whethere or not i get into my top 2 choices.
nxt week. the day after multi.. i have 2 more auditions
and in march i have one the saturday after the bad concert.
and then there goes the thing with my vision.
but thats already up somewhere... on facebook..

yes. im complaining about my life.
and i know .. maybe you guys have it worse off than me.
but you can at least help me out by not making this so stressful for me.

when i YELL.
you know i fckin mean it.
dont walk. RUN.
because im getting tired of... it all. really.
i just cant wait til its over.
and i hope to God that this wont happen during battle season.
im not quitting on you guys just yet.

oh, jovey.
youll have a wonderful time next year.
maybe ill stop by one day and see how you guys are doing.

...


and really,
i cant believe that only some of you come to practice.
i know.. sports.
other clubs.
family..
but really... x.x
at least tell me when ur not gonna be there.
so i dont expect...


yea, im very repetitive





you know,
there are about 47 of you guys...
in the performance..

how many people come to practice everyday?
or.. even.. at all...

around half... or less.

i feel real special.
cuz.. i cant take a day off.
im there everyday.
every hour.
every DAM minute.
of counting.
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

......




if tmrw and especially saturday.. are the same as these last few days.
..
omg. i dont know wat im gonna do.

i thot being president of kasama would be great.
cuz id finally be able to do something i wanted to do for the club.
id be able to do this and that and have fun with the club.

now.
im just gonna be a bitch.
hate me if you want for this next week.
because im gonna be PISSED every day. until multi is over with.
so that you guys can take me SERIOUSLY.


our next practices are


friday, feb 19 @ 2pm on the blacktop [if it rains, meet in the hallway area]
saturday, feb 20 @ 1pm on the blacktop [same if it rains]
monday and tuesday feb 22 and 23 @ 3:10pm [YES, 3:10]
TUESDAY MEETING AT LUNCH FOR EVERYONE IN MULTI.
wednesday and thursday feb 24 and 25 AFTER SCHOOL @ TBA [at meeting at lunch]

FRIDAY ****IMPORTANT***** feb 26 [day of multi] 5am. YES that is 5 AM. IN THE MORNING. on the blacktop. and if no one is on the blacktop, we're already in the gym.
BE THERE. at 5am. [so that we can practice in the gym before the performances actually start]




PLEASE. DO NOT BE LATE TO ANY OF THESE.
i am NOT tolerating it anymore.
NO LATES.

and im SERIOUS.
im gonna bitch at people all i want.
because its one week before multi.





tell everyone in multi.
IM SERIOUS.