p. thoughts[continued]

im confused.

i had a talk with L
and ...
this is getting more... blah every time.

cuz like...

yea
i used to like u
and u used to like me.

but it was blah because of.. 'kira'
and ..

now we're like super awesomely close friends.
id say best friends.


and u asked me to prom.
and i said yes.
at that moment.. i sorta felt something.
but i have no idea wat im really feeling.

because,
i told L, and i told him not to tell u
but i feel like im over him...
uknow... because of alota reasons.
i still care about him.. as a friend [sorta] not even really sometimes.
but yea,
not LOVE him anymore.

i dont think about him alot.
i lost the dogtag. and i ... dont really care.
and im getting tired of sleeping with this teddy bear.

i wanted to go out and make another teddy bear [=
but idk wen thatll happen.

u shall be Wik.
because its so hard to always put 'you....'youyouyouyou
rawr.

and yea.
L. told me u think i really really like u.
and i have no idea if u feel like thats a good thing or... a bad thing.
u know,
if u want me to like u..
or...
u dont want me to like u

we sorta talked about it before
but yea.
u said u thot of me as a really really close friend.
so i guess thats ok.

i dont mind.

in the end, i wouldnt mind if we stayed friends like this or ... kinda went further.
id still be happy either way.

but as i have said before
we'll see. =/


only time will tell?
we're still getting that teddy bear tho =P



but... i havent told u a couple of things.
like,
about Natao.
and AHo

but its cuz... it shouldnt really matter.
im not too interested in them... as much as u
but... not like that.
gah,
its confusing.


yea.....